I was running today, a horrible 6 miles. I haven't run much the last month and I'm doing a half marathon with Quade and his friend Theron in 2 weeks. Time to get going.
I've been thinking about how my life has changed since Shelly had Ruth. Starting at 2am on August 4th, I was sure some things would change for me. I wanted them to because I wanted there to always to be a way she touched my life. How could my life not change. I didn't want it to just be the 3 weeks of depression or my new questions about the effectiveness of praying. Something positive would be marked by this.
As I'm running this morning Neutral Milk Hotel is starting to sing...
What a beautiful face I have found in this place
That is circling all round the sun
What a beautiful dream
That could flash on the screen
In a blink of an eye and be gone from me
Soft and sweet
Let me hold it close and keep it here with me...
I've heard this song so many times over the years, it's a running favorite. This is the first time it had any meaning.
I run for many reasons and I've succeeded in it thanks to the support of friends and family. From now on I run every race for Ruth. I will qualify and run Boston for her. For every step she'll never get to take and for every Mom and Dad that never get to bring their babies home with them.
Who could ask for a better reason than that.
What a beautiful face I have found in this place
That is circling all round the sun
And when we meet on a cloud
I'll be laughing out loud
I'll be laughing with everyone I see
Can't believe how strange it is to be anything at all
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AH3CRVVBL9o
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